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Hitting 40 After Hitting Cancer 2x

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In my life before cancer, I thought 40 was middle-aged. But after hitting cancer twice, hitting 40 – and any age for that matter – never feels like I’m in the middle of anything, but more like I’m on the edge of something. The last prognosis I was given predicted that I had an 80% […]

Killing Fear In Survivorship–Like Riding A Bike

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It’s been ages since I’ve biked to shrink my carbon footprint. But in my pre-cancerous life, I used to cover great distances on my road bike. Bleh! I hate how that sounds. It’s what people depressingly say when they think their life has already peaked … “I used to (fill in any challenging feat here).” […]

3 Tips for When Christmas Sucks 

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It’s not lost on most people that the holiday season and all its purported merry-ness actually makes many of us feel some other type of way. So, I’m here to admit that despite my own contribution to Instagram glitter from Christmas happyland, this Christmas actually kinda sucked for me. Sorry, Instagram isn’t real. They lying […]

Fill Up My Solo Cup

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This weekend, I had my first alcoholic bevie in five years–ending an initially necessary, but subsequently unnecessary, self-imposed, nonsectarian period of abstinence. Here’s why … Five years ago, after getting news that I was in remission, I toasted my victory with a celebratory glass of Cabernet raised high. But shortly after I tossed back that […]