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5 Years Ago – I Officially Got Cancer

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Five years ago today, I got the call. I was with my co-worker, standing in line at the post office, tucked inside the cellar of Macy’s department store in downtown San Francisco, waiting to ship materials for a leadership training that I was planning to lead in D.C. the following week. I was an ambitious 32-year-old […]

Food Allergies Are For Real

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I’m lying in bed late this morning, after being up all night racked with diarrhea, intestinal pain, cramping to the point that I can’t stand up straight, a painful levator spasm, along with bleeding and irritated anal fissures. Uh huh. I said it. Anal fissures are tiny paper cuts all around my rectum that, when […]

My Toxic Heart Monitor

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When my cardiologist first suggested that I wear a heart monitor for two weeks, I pushed back on the idea, saying that since my echocardiogram and EKG turned out OK, I was fine with those results and didn’t want to explore further. I’ve been like this throughout my health challenges. I didn’t want to carry […]

Today … I Ran!

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When my former personal training colleagues, Billy and Mike, came over for lunch a couple weeks ago, I mentioned how much I miss being physically strong, and that I’d been thinking a lot about just putting on some running clothes and heading out. Billy suggested, “You should. Why not?” Fear. I’ve been afraid of the […]

Bald Is The New Black

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During my initial six-month course of ABVD chemotherapy treatments, nurses told me that my hair would fall out by the second treatment. For some reason, it hung on for a few treatments beyond that – feeding my false hope that perhaps it wouldn’t fall out at all. Part of me was upset that I had […]